CRISTY from season one till now.
I believed in a turn around in this country and  for it to spread throughout the world.
 
By me i promise to be on a new clean path for my life.
 
as the concerned acknowledges my value and statement,
 
 The noble reason for my change is aspired by the help and back up to my ideas.
 
otherwise
 
i am stuck here in the darkmatter of the bottom feeders, desperate, and lagging 2 get out.
 
if people could donate anything to my cause..
 
 i'd appreciate it and swear i will keep you notifed.
 
my word is held when reflected to.
maybe even the show will respond to me cause as of now they don't care anymore.
i've since after the 'intervention' been left, cold, hungry, and beyond alone in hope.
scrutinized enough to spin insanity thats not even me but because of the rumors
 
i'm Totally disrespected
 
and from the place i was trying to grow with and from.
 
And now a messy hell over my head i had no intention of dealing through, by, or with so
 
yeah
 
this not the way for anyone to heal, especially with my labels and stereotype slapped on
 
me.
 
come on. man
 
 luckily the truth is strong in this one
 
and i won't be bad off
 
but then again
 
i plead for your HELP. 
all these walls that peps put up are lame cause i'm not getting better.
no ones that well off now days in love and hope for things to change right.
my shape of life has become question to starring down a barrel of some enemies gun.
it wasn't like that b4.
i'm sh*ting my pants not knowing if i have a fan gone bad 4 me and wants me put to rest for
 
my enthusiasm.
 
even though i am not jaded, crooked or a rat 
 
i'm looked at as some punk bitch with no back.
my mind spirit heart and soul have the integrity of god so i'm not at all stressing on that.
what i am stressing on is some half azhs ganster , rookie status looking to be big and smart,
 
but really is a wrong iggnorant lad still needing training wheels.
now what do i do after being pointed out and aimed at as a target to get f**ked with.
i call out to the OG's that put it down right.
the way of a life is measured to be respected and no petty sh*T is sweated or expected.
please realize
 
i'm serious.
 
 i need help.
No scam rehab am i talking either.
help of people who care about others as well as themselves.
that generates the juicey.
 
Enough love could start a worldly family and that is definately what i truely need.
 
2 call home.
2getha
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